today was the worst day...

I really can not bear with this mask anymore. Today has been thee worst day to wear that damn mask. A temperature in that heat was really uncomfortable. So today was the first time my family saw me with it on and I've been feeling sick for the past 2 days. My mom and doctor advised I take it off due to the flu I've contracted...my doctor rates the mask has something to do with it...she's against the project. Oh well I got the meds so I guess I'll be fine. I took it off for the rest of the day after the visit...I couldn't deal...really. My mom found the project really interesting tho. I don't understand how traditional muslim women do it really... But I guess its not as bad as the mask. And as much as I thought it was a sign of oppression, stripping away of freedom it doesn't change who I am and what I believe in. There's more to understand though I rate. Well...I'm still counting down the days and I must admit it will be a little strange without it. I'm starting to discover something important about myself though...I'll let you know when I'm sure about it. Bye for now