long #shutup to freedom...

Wow, I can smell...well not literally though I wish I could but anyway I can smell freedom knocking on my nostrils, opening my mouth to take in that fresh breathe of air and eating what ever where ever!!! I'm tooo excited. Its almost near..I will miss it a little though. Its become part of me in a way. I must say there's a lot I have learned about myself, society and how miss leading lack of knowledge and communication can be as a people and how uncomfortable people can be just by being around something or something they can not relate to or see themselves in. Its pretty amazing how we as a people are quick to think of the worst possible situation anyone might ne going through because of something perculliar about them. Also we take freedom for granted and we limit the freedom of others through negative comment and judging without knowledge. I still laugh at those who think swine flu is back, lol...I think the news would have caught on and announced that but anyway. Its been a normal day I guess. Not much to say...its been like any other for the past couple of days...I've adapted to wearing the mask but..I wouldn't mind de-attaching round about now. Food!! I can't wait till I go out and eat with other people lol. Nehoo I'm signing out

...its almost over =]

Well as the title says...its almost over *dancing*...well yurp. Its been good. Woah so today I took a taxi on my way home. Let's just say it was the worst out of all the almost bad experiences of all taxi rides ever. The man that sat next to me on the first ride..well he didn't even want to touch my money, let alone the woman in the front of me who had to pass the R5 rand coin forward. Well she did but you could tell she wished she had a hand senitiser close to her. Then walking to the rank was another embarrassing mission. Taxi drivers shouting out every disease and sickness you can think of at me, some saying I'm promiscuous and I have AIDS that's why I'm wearing a mask...well coming from half educated rural men I took it lightly and laughed it off though some of the things said did upset me. Then I jump on another taxi and the girl sitting next me decides to get up and sit behind me...I wonder what was going through her mind. But judging from the look on her face I think I have a slight idea. Being stared at and listening to mumbles and whispers, not necessarily about me were discomforting and no person should live life feeling that way. I guess Muslim women are used to it because its Religion and its normal for the and they don't wear surgery masks but dealing with stares and comments I'm sure is never easy but tolerable I guess. This project made me realize how easy it is for people to judge and make assumptions from the little knowledge they have themselves and I included. Its easy to comment and gossip about people but never easy to be on the receiving end...and knowing it. Its been an interesting day...I'm signing out.

...i guess it was normal...

Yurrp, just like my title I guess today was normal. Nothing bizarre or strange happened that made me flinch or feel any weirder than I already seem to be witch sucked the life out of this project so tomorrow I'm going out into the world...yes I'm taking public transport for the stares, the whispers and the giggles...ok, is it ok to say I missed it?? ..yurp it definitely is weird and not ok. I guess being transported to school really does take the fun out of this project. I think I've lost a few inches though...I avoid eating, its too much of a mission really. Can't stand it...oh what the hell I wish I lost a few inches though my roommate has certainly learned to keep quite now though I do miss the juicy gossip of the boring and unkown kids from Vacation Club more commonly known as VC...yawn! Anyway yurp that's me for the day..nothing interesting and almost outrageous...ok I think I'm a drama queen...*ok babsy this is not the place nor time for your emotional outbursts* lol sorry about that. Oh well I'm out of here...byeeeeee

...never want to experience a weekend as bad as this

Hey heyz...yeah, so what else is new besides staying in the whole weekend because not only am I sick but people already think I'm sick...this surgery mask business is just overly annoying now. Well I guess it fit the occasion of staying in bed proper coz that's exactly what I did...and to be honest I totally forgot to blog yesterday..not sure if its because I'm already over this project or that I'm getting used to wearing the mask. Did a lot of thinking this weekend tho, and for the first time I though stuff about my friends and actually kept it to myself. I have a tendencies of telling my friends exactly how i feel about stuff that involves them and I'm usually blunt about it, meaning someones feelings get alil shattered but nope, I kept quiet!! Hushed up... Which didn't turn out so good though because one of them needed my advice and as usual I'd just spit the truth as it is...and my hushness didn't benefit anyone at all...a whole lot could have been avoided if I just gave my honest blunt opinion... Guess I can't always play superhero mom friend to my friends all the time whic is kinds hard but hey...life I guess. Wow... A lot has been learned. Still learning too. Later then...nighty

today was the worst day...

I really can not bear with this mask anymore. Today has been thee worst day to wear that damn mask. A temperature in that heat was really uncomfortable. So today was the first time my family saw me with it on and I've been feeling sick for the past 2 days. My mom and doctor advised I take it off due to the flu I've contracted...my doctor rates the mask has something to do with it...she's against the project. Oh well I got the meds so I guess I'll be fine. I took it off for the rest of the day after the visit...I couldn't deal...really. My mom found the project really interesting tho. I don't understand how traditional muslim women do it really... But I guess its not as bad as the mask. And as much as I thought it was a sign of oppression, stripping away of freedom it doesn't change who I am and what I believe in. There's more to understand though I rate. Well...I'm still counting down the days and I must admit it will be a little strange without it. I'm starting to discover something important about myself though...I'll let you know when I'm sure about it. Bye for now

today was the worst day...

I really can not bear with this mask anymore. Today has been thee worst day to wear that damn mask. A temperature in that heat was really uncomfortable. So today was the first time my family saw me with it on and I've been feeling sick for the past 2 days. My mom and doctor advised I take it off due to the flu I've contracted...my doctor rates the mask has something to do with it...she's against the project. Oh well I got the meds so I guess I'll be fine. I took it off for the rest of the day after the visit...I couldn't deal...really. My mom found the project really interesting tho. I don't understand how traditional muslim women do it really... But I guess its not as bad as the mask. And as much as I thought it was a sign of oppression, stripping away of freedom it doesn't change who I am and what I believe in. There's more to understand though I rate. Well...I'm still counting down the days and I must admit it will be a little strange without it. I'm starting to discover something important about myself though...I'll let you know when I'm sure about it. Bye for now

I THINK THIS IS MAKING ME ALIL SICK??

Sooooo I didn't blog yesterday because I was dying. LITERALLY. Had the worst flu ever..or cold...its all the same point is i was sick! it must the ice cold air con at Vega and me breathing the same polluted air in this mask= complete imbalance!! i must say this is the most uncomfortable I've ever been in my life. Having people stare at you and ask you a million questions...and being called weird is kinda not kool! its hard keeping quiet when you're in an environment that deals with communications... consulting with my lecturer was definitely the worst. I felt uncomfy for the poor guy and myself! Image! Eating an apple kinda drew attention as well at the caff...it always does when I eat. It's almost impossible to find a room or space where there isn't anyone so i can eat in private. This is harder than I thought. Tomorrow I'm going to see a friend of mine in hospital...lol its gonna be very interesting...but right now i just want to go home and sleep. had a stressful day and this damn mask is making it worse. I can't even smile which I love doing. I bet the cleaners and everyone I've come across past 4 days thinks Im thee most unfriendliest bitch in the world!! Wish 10 days were up already>>>> ENOUGH!

Is this oppression or religion?

Whats your take??

   http://viz.dwrl.utexas.edu/content/citizenship-unveiled

THIS IS GETTING TO ME....GRRRRRR!!!

                                                                           AFTER

BEFORE =]

So today is day2 of my body intervention and already I feel like quitting and cheating my way through it. As I post im chilling at the caff with friends....exactly!! I'm not interacting, laughing and talking about what they're observing with all the cool weirdos that exist within the premises of Vega...I'm stitting here feeling alone and typing away. This surgery mask is blocking my air circulation...I'm starting to feel like my breath stinks coz I breathe in and out of this damn shit. What the phuk is this mask even made off??? I'ts pissing me off already. Yesterday I had to eat lunch in an empty room so nobody could see me without it on...today I said phuk it! I'm hungry and wont feel like a prisoner. Several people on campus are convinced I have TB!!! It makes me extremely angry..TB?? REALLY?? when will this day end already?!